August 2011
1 post
I love how annoying bitches like to complain to their boyfriends about my posts. GET THE FUCK OFF MY TUMBLR BITCH !
July 2011
4 posts
Fuck.
How can I have an amazing guy like me ? Someone smart. Attractive. A musician. Funny. Makes me laugh. Most girls dream guy. And I still refuse to even give him the time of day because I’m still locked on a fucking monster.
I'm proving more and more to myself.
I keep realizing my life Is so different with out you. Not bad. But I miss you. But every time I think of you. I don’t remember anything good. Any good thing that comes to mind I think about how you were avoiding texts from girls but then telling them you like them and lying to them about me. How most of the feelings and sweet things you said, weren’t only being said to me. And you...
It sucks,
how i hate you so much. think your absolutely disgusting. And I’ve lost about 70 percent of my feelings for you. and yet i still love you as much as i ever did. its not natural. what did you do to me ?
so i did it.
i have enough disgust and hatred for you that i hooked up with someone else. and it was honestly disgusting, nothing like kissing you and i regret it. i dont want to hook up with anyone else like ever again. i feel disgusting letting someone who isnt you touch me. just wish you could say the same.
June 2011
3 posts
its funy...
how one thing you said to me when i first figured all of this out was “good luck with out me you whore.” ill never forget it. But its ironic how you wish me luck when im so busy im with different people every couple of days. and your with the the same two friends you have. hahahaha. who do nothing but talk shit about how annoying you are. i also think its funny that you call ME a...
Hahahaha.
You doing what you’ve done has brought back the girl you never wanted back. Three guys numbers in two days. Even though I’m not interested in any of these guys it’s good to know I’m still able to do this. And after everything I feel no guilt anymore. So thank you. You fucking me over did good things for me.
Girls like you.
Piss me the fuck off. You have a different boyfriend every few weeks. They all “mean so much” but you talk about how horrible they are to you. Then a few weeks later they dump your annoying ass and your “heart broken”, til the next guy that gives you attention wants to come alone. Which is normally any guy who thinks your easy. And you probabaly are. Grow up. Try being...
May 2011
3 posts
You were right.
I have gone back to my old ways; just not as bad and not slutty. but i enjoy being a party girl again yet still knowing my limits.
Hm.
I know if you read this you’ll try the whole ‘stop talking to her so she can be happy thing.’ even when i don’t want that. i wish we talked more then we do. and i know you’ve found another girl to talk to every day and to text in the morning. it was never hard for you. but I’ve realized I’m only upset when i think or hear or see you. any other time...
I dont wanna be in love anymore.
nothing good comes from it. all pain. its good in the beginning. then all goes to shit when one of you messes up. and one of you will. dont ever think something will last forever. it will last months. a year. maybe a few. but not forever.
April 2011
3 posts
Wesley Tyler Mckinley.
I have never felt so bad for not forgiving someone. I wish i had and maybe i could have stopped you from doing what you did. I wish you had left a note or at least told one person why. I still feel like it hasnt completly hit me. I feel like i havent fully realized that you arent around anymore.I feel like i will get another apology text in a few mpnths but then i realize that i wont. It kills me...
Dont.
Dont act like you have any obligations to me at all at this point. you are moving on. so continue to do that and stop making me sick.
I want.
So desperately to tell you what I think. How every time you touch me I sometimes feel disgusted because I wonder what you’ve done with other girls. When you say certain things to me I don’t wanna respond because I know you do or have said them to someone else. To tell you that half the time you lie to me, i know you are lying because I’ve already found out the truth. To say that there is actually...
March 2011
3 posts
I wish.
That I could stop my constant worrying. Stop thinking that every little thing he does could be something bad. I wanna stop thinking that if he says something other then what he normally says that he feels different. I over think everything he does and then I just wonder and everything goes bad because I get nervous and sad. I don’t want it to be like that anymore. I wanna be able to be like...
Ms. Elliott
I never realized how quickly things happen. And i never thought i wuold be this sad over the death of a teacher. But she was the most amazing teacher in the world. So many of her students felt like they knew her so well. She joked around so much and made everyone smile. Its so hard to believe that i saw you and spoke to you this morning and then hours later your gone. and at such a young age. It...
I'm happy.
For now. Hopefully this will last. We are going really good. And it’s great. We both seem happy and like we are trying to make it work. I don’t feel like I’m the only one trying anymore. You seem so much more caring and loving and you seem like you love me more then I love you which I haven’t felt in a really long time. I’m still scared about the future. But for now i...
February 2011
11 posts
"one condition. no crying."
trust me. you don’t have to worry about that. i have no more tears to waste on you.
I never realized....
how inconsiderate people are. not even in general i mean with relationships ending and towards their so called “friends”. You can date someone for months or years. but once you break up, i guarantee you people are gonna attack like fucking hungry birds.People have no respect when it comes to that kind of situation. Like i think its pathetic that his friends hit on me, say things they...
I dont understand.
like whats happening ? i miss you. a lot. but like I’m happier ? like i feel like doing what we did was the best thing that could have happened. i don’t even remember how to cry anymore. I honestly think its the fact that everything I’ve heard true or not has finally gotten to my head and effected me. like me always wanting to be with you and see you ? yeah no....
Reasons not to give into him again.
he admitted that he can only hurt me.
sent pictures to another girl.
lied to me about talking to girls.
led me on 8 times in four months.
constant arguing.
no trust.
constant crying.
sketchy.
always has an excuse.
ugh.
How hard is it for people to understand ? I LOVE HIM. whether you think its real or true or not doesn’t really bother me. whether you think he doesn’t love me or not doesn’t matter to me. none of it really does. i dont care if you think im stupid. or blind. or ignorant. or anything else. You cant change how i feel or what I’m going to do.
Its really not that simple to...
Ew.
Couples are officially starting to make me sick. I’m willing to admit that peoples happiness and love for other people upsets me. Not because I’m jealous but because i know it wont last very long. Nothing good ever does.
I hate the word cute.
Did you ever think maybe thats why i stopped talking to you ? not because kevin told me too, but because you say every little thing i do is cute. Im not a fucking five year old. I don’t enjoy being called cute or adorable. “Oh you can only eat the spicy chicken sanwhich ? thats cute :)” “Wow. I never realized how small you are. its cute :)” you might as well...
Summer 09.
I miss you. I want a repeat. You were the best and most intense summer of my whole life.
PROS: warped tour. laying on the kitchen counter all night listening to a day to remember. birthday cake ice cream. My at the time lovely then turned out to be life ruining twelve month later fling. Doing illegal things at the beach. Late night adventures. daily walks to the park. bike rides to family dollar,...
Liars,
That’s something else i wanna understand. How can you lie to the “love of your life” when you know if she ever found out she would be broken. How can you let her see something, a picture from a slut to be exact. See her cry. Then straight up lie to her face and tell her it was random and that you two don’t even talk. When you did reply. And sent pictures in return. How you...
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Why do people do what they do ?
Lately i’ve been wondering so many things. Like why people do what they do if they know it’s wrong ? Why people lie to each other ? Why are people so mean to others below them ? Who do people choose to be so reckless all the time ?
I think most people are like this. But it actually bothers me. To the point where i’ve been asking why people do what they do...